A day in paradise
Wednesday, August 15, 2007I may choose apathy or I can play autism but after a group of protesters armed with banners and never-ending chant passed before me, he caught my attention.
True to the form of Taong Grasa as defined by self-righteous society, he was comfortably sitting in his place in the sidewalk. He was wrapped up by his self-made world.
As if awakened, he stood up. With his precious dirty tuxedo, he put his hands on his hips and like professional model, he posed. After enjoying his new-found profession, he relaxed. He then engaged in a conversation with someone he alone can see. He nodded, talked, smiled a little then stopped as if to listen.
Dog’s 2 ticks
Monday, August 13, 2007This story happened when I was in college.
The avenue is one of the busy roads during daytime within the city. Along that long road lies a public cemetery and like any other cemetery, it is cold and lonely especially in the middle of the night.
A friend of mine was suffering a broken heart when his girlfriend eloped with another guy. As a breather, he found himself alone and lonely walking along the avenue. It was almost midnight and it was cold, thanks to the heavy rains that evening. There was no one except for one or two cars passed with great speed.
Rain started to pour again and no PUJs were in sight. He ran to the nearest waiting shed, the one nearer to the cemetery gate. He stood there waiting for the rain to stop or PUJ to pass by, whichever comes first. In his peripheral vision, he saw someone near the gate. He felt a chill in his neck. He tried to ignore what he saw and the fear that started to build up.
In seconds, he sensed something bearing on his left side. He took a deep breath and finally looked. There she was, few inches from his face. Her eyes looked directly into his. It was the loneliest eyes he ever saw!
Black Hole
Saturday, August 11, 2007The sky, even as a child, it fascinates me. I dreamed of becoming an astronomer so I could study the sky and everything in it. I used to spend time watching the stars and moon. In day, the forming clouds and even if it hurts the eyes, the sun. I learned an area of the sky and learned it intimately until it becomes a cornerstone of my private map. The area of my sky is not a complete picture but a tantalizing one. It invites guesswork, fancies and theories.
Just like my life.
It occurred to me that the sky is parallel to life. A phenomenon in the sky is a phenomenon of life.
I have known my galaxy and now it was different. It had been altered. The changes distorted the surrounding sky.
Ode to the entities who taught me smoking
Thursday, August 9, 2007High School life was the best until I stepped into college.
First two years were boring. Boring subjects, boring teachers, boring lesson, boring classmates, boring everything and boredom stirred up the quitter in me.
But I woke up one day and realized there is no such thing as boring everything, only boring minds. Incontented with the same sh*t, I tried mind boggling, mental aerobics but I settled for mental masturbation to anesthetize myself and encapsulated boredom in the back seat of my mind. For happy thoughts I needed for my flight, I took amphetamines to get my life a life.
Infringing the redundancy of my so-called life, three entities disturbed my full circle.
I don’t know how I find them or how they found me or how we found each other. Or did we, really?
The three creatures kept me hanging between sanity and lunacy during those days when I was trying to find myself for I am not sure if how I lost it. Actually, we still hold on until now for my sake and for theirs, too.
Fate was maybe weary that time when it played a joke on us, as it collected me and Allan in the back seat of the dark room where Ms Judy tried to grab our attention.
Ritchel didn’t exist at that moment as far as I am concern but she was somewhere in that same dark room. King? Who would have thought he was alive?
Tell me who your friends are. I have 3!
Alam mo na ba?
Thursday, August 2, 2007Dumating ka sa buhay sa isang pagkakataon na hindi ko inaasahan. Hindi kita kaylangan, hindi ko kinakailangan nang kahit sino sa buhay ko. Hindi ko binigyang pansin ang pagdating mo. Sabi ko sa isip ko, aalis ka rin kapag ipinaramdam ko sa’yo ang pagbabalewala. Pero hindi, wala na akong magawa, andiyan ka na eh.
May nagbago agad sa akin. Ako pa rin naman ako. Ganun pa rin naman ang molecules na bumubuo sa katawan ko pero highly-charged na ang mga ito. Kapag nagpaparamdam ka, halos mabaliw ang bawat cell sa sistema ko. Naglulundagan, parang baliw na nag-aamok, parang lamok na carrier ng dengue na nasa loob ng kulambo, parang addict na lowbat at gustong tumira.
Noong inamin ko ang pagdating mo , punong puno ng sari-saring emosyon ang puso ko. Sa sobrang gulo, kahit ang trilyon-trilyong neurons sa utak ko hindi ito kayang i-dentify.
